wow

i was so excited to get some work done on the doc today...i rushed here from work and even forgot my laptop at work.....i couldnt wait to get it done and over with. until i saw phil today. when i was here he did nothing...he was talking to other people doing their work.fuck! i started writing down ideas and gave phil some paper to write some down on. i just saw them by this computer and its blank... i have atleast 2 pages...fuck!!this has gotten me soo down its not even funny. i dont really care right at this moment about passing or failing....who give a fuck......im just a pathetic looser that will amount to nothing.....fuck!!! should i even go to class to hand in my html shit tomorrow......i dont know.....i guess this little bit of venting has done me good......im going to see if i can help kat in anyway at all.....FUCK!!