simple question for t hose who know me

Describe me in ONE WORD...just one word!

billie

its amazing how much goes through you mind on a short bus ride. i was going home today from school and i noticed that billie was on the bus and i thought to myself just great i wonder if she will recognize me...and of course the only seat was right infront of her..i sat down as quickly as possible...she was kind of falling asleep so i dont even know if she saw me looking back on it.....as i sat down i was thinking what if she saw me..then that would lead to going out for drinks and then that would probally lead back going to her place...that would lead to her getting high again and getting better aquainted with each other then the thought of all that money that id spend on booze and missing classes just like before and the main reason why i failed law and security...then i thought about the last time we got more better aquainted with each other and her passing out on me...her not showing up to concerts and movies that she said she would go see with me....but then....(ya my mind went everywhere on this one all in about a 20 min bus ride)reminding myself that the time we did spend together was great and i enjoyed every min of it....this was around victoria ville and just as the bus pulled away i turned around to make sure it was her and she was gone....ohh well

avid

im soo glad i went to school and tried to learn how to do it. a teacher mike moore was there( not the bowling for colimbine one) but he makes a lot more sence...he said one great thing and it made it easyer to capture the video...all he said was there is no preroll so the first set of time code you have to put at least 10 second before...after that pat and i got the video in fine...so editing shouldnt be hard to do at all...im still going to go in and let mike go throught it one more time just to make sure it goe s in fine....work wise i still dont have the a dept and i asked the dept manager and he didnt get me back to me.....ill have to talk to him on wed.

wal mart....grrrrrrrrrr

wow just when you think that your job is going well things have to happen! first i added shifts for the summer hopeing to get more hours...this didnt happen....i had to go around all summer to differnt dept looking for shifts not what wasnt had to do...but now in sept they change my shifts...great now they dont have me working the weekends and working during the week when im in school...so not only am i now out of shifts the only ones i cant work im sheduled...wow what a fuck up there....hopefully i can get into a differnt dept like electronics for the weekend and maybe monday morn...that would be great now the only thing that is stopping me is the store manager saying i cant do this..

so here is to hopeing everything can get staighted out

school assigment

for my intro to digital media design class we had to get a web page at freeservers.com. i did this today....the class is only at one after all......and this is mine if anyone cares..

new toys

bought a new computer a new web cam....touble it can only be trouble..lol and because i know ill be stressed out i boght 2 games to get rid of some stress and these games will make me not drink as much...the game i always wanted half life 2
and wow or other wise known as world of warcraft.kahn wants me to play this so ill give it a try and now i just need to remember to get rid of my final fantasy online game....i havnt played it in 6 months..time to get rid of i guess

now if i can just get all the softwear i want so i can do work at home..i hope they can fall into my lap because these are not cheap...programs i want include
photoshop cs2
avid editing program what we are using at the school
3dmax

now that the computer can handle it my life will be easyer seeing how if i put my footaga on my hard drive i dont have to book out the computer there

lets see what happens

last post

i decided to delete the last post just because...there are no real reasons why i have done so....its just bettert this way....

cranberries

im listing to a song called whats on my mind and it got me to think that there is lots on my mind right now..mostly school and some personal stuff that i wont get into(borring you dont want to know) but its great that me and my doc partner is getting along well....we have the main part to a proposal that we have to present on tuesday. we have to do 2 and then choose one...the good part is we ran both past rene(from shaw) and the way he was talking about the second one it was a little scarry..he liked it soo much and he pretty much changed your minds on what one we are going to do. his ENTHUSIM is both a good thing and a bad thing....the fact that he likes it is a good thing..but like all things there is a flip side to this..can we put together a 10 min doc that can live up to his expications? that part has me a little worried because how is he going to mark this....like a teacher or someone looking to buy this and put it on shaw......but there is one thing i know for a fact.....how ever he marks this project it will be with no bias... thats all i have to say...its gong to be a long day tomorrow with doing an edl on my boxer video...but at least i have the sound effects and music picked out....i still have to go over the proposial and make it better tomorrow at work...got to love how my time to myself at work is me doing homework. finally wwe wrestling tomorrow...i dont think its going to be a good PPV but im still going to relax abit and go over....i think ill bring my laptop overthere and do work during the boring matches...THIS DOC IS GOING TO KICK ASS!!!!

bday stuff

the first thing i go for my bday/christmas gift was this liteon 5005 dvd recorder(my parents got me this)..this is great seeing how now i can tape the new season of 24 right to dvd and dont worry about the tapes....and i can also take old tapes and convert them to dvd and save space

my sis got me a lot this year and ill have to try and get her something just as good...she got me some old navy clothing and then the above pic that i now keep everything from my waller sunglasses,necklace,cell phone in the bottom...on the top drawer i keep my spare change and the one on the right i keep my ipod and shuffle...this item is great seeing how i my this area looked like shit before and now its all neet and tidy.

my aunt said she got me some clothing but i think she has things confused from last year...she got me some stuff (clearance) from when saans closed(i think thats how you spell it)

as for the rest of my day we ended up getting some pizza and went to go see The exorism of emily rose this movie looked better in the trailers because i thought it was going to be better and it ended up being more of a trial than what it looked like in the trailer...ohh well


i had a class mate sing happy bday to me in class and that was neat...then i took a bow..over all it was an ok bday...too bad i didnt end up hanging out(mini put and then movie the 40 year old virgin) with sarah and laura. ohh well we will end up doing something later this week.

ps as you can tell i just learned how to link stuff thats why there is soo many...lol

how do the fuck do you play hockey here?

just one of the words spoken by pearl jam....the concert was great...they played a lot of songs i wanted to hear from alive,daugher,even flow,given to fly, to name a few. the best part had to be where he got off stage and climed where guard rail(behind the stage is where the goalie normally is and there was no puck guard so he climed up there) up to the fans and sang one song in the crowd....you can tell that wasnt planned at all....all the security staff had a look of wonder in what the fuck he was going(that included jumping up on what i think was a speaker and then there was a ladder to get up to the lights and he swang off that into the crowd) to do and them running to where he was going was great...the neil young keep on rocking in the free world song kicked ass...this had got to be one if not the best...it was good going with my sis but something was missing...the whole gf thing...amanda bay from tbay was sitting infront of me and her and her bf looked soo happy together.....there were some songs that i just felt like huggin that special somone and swaying along to the music but sadly there was my sis there and that would have looked and been a little weard if you know what i mean....maybe i should start looking for that someone...im not getting any younger you know....ill get on that one asap...after school ends this year...maybe sooner..one can never tell.

good day

i must admit that i was a little worried about the 8-10 min doc that we have to do this year...my 5 min doc could have gone a little better if i would have choosen a topic that would have been easyer. but this year Kat asked if i wanted to do this assigment with her...of course i said yes right away and i think we are going to do a kick ass job..we are planning things already like what we are going to do the topic on and we get the assigment next week...now we just have to see what topics can actually be done for next week......i cant wait i have a good feeling that we are going to be good.

pearl jam tonight and i got seats in section d row h...so thats good i think? guess ill find out tonight. almost had a little heart attack today with the tickets because the person couldnt find the envolope that had my tickets in..but luckly it was stuck to another one...thank god!

best and weardest comment of the day...johnny was asking for a vote on a job later on i the year and he said he will need a good catcher.....now if you take that in a sexual way its wrong....soo verry wrong...lol....when i pointed that out to him he just laughed out loud seeing how he just realized what he just said...but i know when john gets stressed out he likes throwing a baseball around and needs a backcather...but still the weardest thing that ever said to me

firtst day of school

ok so im not completly sober right now so its a perfect time to blog...or so i think

only been drinking since about 4pm and i think i spent about 150 on booze...not a bad night at all

we only got kicked out or refuesed to be served at 3 bars tonight

one at the da vinci bar the whole table got refused servious then we went to the westfort to drink where we got kicked out because one person told the owner to fuck off because he was being too loud and to watch what we do

then we went to a bar not even block away got served there and then i dont know why but went back to the westfort where one person fell asleep at the bar

ended up walking home and it only took me an hour so in the end i didnt get robed or anything and got home safely..

class at 9 am cant wait

road trip

today was some day. it all started with your comming right? and of me not knowing whats going on like on all days i had to ask....so i ended going on a little trip to grand maries.....it turned out to be quite the trip and a fun one...i love road trips and will go anywhere just for the hell of it...if anyone calls or messages me and says those 2 words road trip im in....

but getting back to the story at hand.....the fun started at the u.s border and the questions...laura did a good job at answering them...where you going?..rydens....why whats going on there was the next question and then the blank look and the pause that seemed to last about 3 min but im sure it was only 10 seconds give or take.....for candy we cant get in canada...well it was the truth and we got past into the good u s of a with out getting a cavity search.

Sven and Olies for pizza was great and they should have one in town...or maybe not seeing how road trips are great and id go just for that alone....big pizza slices...big pizza it great and the price was good also...after the pizza came the real NEAT part where the molistation of statues started and ill get some pics later from sarah. lets just say that they will never be the same or neither with the thunder bay sign the naked statue of men and women holding kids up, the i think lumberjack...i also climed up these woden poles infront of this store to do my karate kid pose you know the one with one leg up in the air and the arms out.

also went to an iga for food we cant get here and someone asked me how i was doing..that was weard seeing how i have no idea on who this person is or anything....so that was cool...also i didnt plan on seeing AKIO at rydens but still it was good to see him.

fun times had by all and if im missing anything im sure sarah or laura will fill in the stuff i forgot in the comments

thinking about stuff

im just chatting here and thinking of the summer and that this summer has been a little on the borning side...normally i go to toronto and go to a concert or 2. being in a mosh pit with 1600 metallica fan was great and going to sars stock(toronto rocks) and seeing the stones and ac/dc play was great summers to remember

not that this year has been a bad one..its been a summer of meeting people meeting people at wedding and just chatting online. all of these people im happy to have meet and i hope they feel the same about meeting me.meeting julie and playing pool...maybe we can do more if the time will allow it...then there is sarah and laura..meeting sarah for the first time was great going to laura bday and getting lost(kind of) was fun...... laura i know from st pats and is someone i should have tried to keep in touch with more....i should phone christian i wonder whats up with him? amanda talking to her for quite a whyle before kahns wedding but not getting a lot of time to talk in person due to the wedding and lots have to be done...next time will be differnt...and then there was jacqui someone that i wanted to know better but either she didnt get my message about the pearl jam or got my email...either way its ok more than likely ill see her next year at the anniversary party

school is going to be fun and intense....sarah is in film and the classes dont get along even though it is known that WE HAVE THE BEST PARTYS AND KICK ASS..now that the class thing is out of the way ...lol time to get a little serious...maybe a friendly seeing whos video work is better will bring the best in both of us.... i cant fuck things up in school this year even thought the pressure is on me even more than last year and i hope i dont crack under the pressure...new cameras...editing systems....and if i dont pass i cant take the 3rd year in Austrailia that means ill have to be a wal mart greeter for the rest of my life and that would suck ass.. but then people say im too hard on myslef and i do good work..but i think eveything i do is shit...maybe that what i need to do good work

then its a time to get a real job for the rest of my life i dont know whats more scarry school and me not being able to fuck up or doing a job for the rest of my life...i need to think more of myself and think that im good enought for a gf i need more self confidence...but then again me just saying these things are easyer said than done..im almost 27 and i need to have more life experiences...the pic above is a litle reminder of what is waiting for me in Austrailia i cant fuck things up
...my friend lisa took this pic she has been there almost a year and im soo jellous.. i want to be there no matter what seeing how it has been a childhood dream of mine to go. but lets see what happens and go from there..wow and just think i only started blogin this year and normally i have a hard time to say what im thinking but here no problem....thank you laura for telling me about your blog and getting me started in this.
in closing ill just add

welcome to wal mart...lol

something i havent done in a whyle

1. What is your occupation? student/wal marts bitch
2. What color is your underwear? back
4. What was the last thing you ate?pbj
5. Do you wish on stars? Sometimes
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? purple
7. How is the weather right now? sunny, light breeze
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? person asking to see if wal mart has a game(star wars legs for ps2)
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? sure do
10. How old are you today? 26
11. Favorite drink? crystal light tangerine-grapefruit
12. Favorite sport to watch? Hockey.but texis holdem is up there
13. Do you dye your hair? nope
14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? no
15. Pets? One cat,2 dogs,1 Chinchilla
17. Favorite food? Pasta
18. What was the last movie you watched? fear and loathing in los vegas
19. Favorite day of the year? all hallows eve
20. What do you do to vent anger? listen to my happy music,nin,tool,aperfect circle
21. What was your favorite toy as a child? he-man
22. Fall or spring? fall
23. Hugs or kisses? Hugs.
24. Cherry or Blueberry? blueberry
25. Do you want your friends to email you back? It doesn't matter.
26. Who is most likely to respond? no one im not emailing it out
27. Who is least likely to respond? eveyone
28. Living arrangements? home
29. When was the last time you cried tears of joy? cant remember
30. What is on the floor in your closet? dvd eempty cases,skates,2 katana swords
31. Who is the friend you have had the longest? dan 20 some odd years
32. What did you do last night? tv
33. What inspires you? music
34. What are you afraid of? nothing that i know of
35. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers?spicey
36. Favorite pastime? movies, music
37. Date of birth? sept 12 78

words that make sence

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top.

this is not directed to anyone let me say that right from the start....i got like i said this email and i thought about how true it is and how some people think

i just hope that if anyone that these words make someone feel better when reading them

new chair

yesterday i bought a new computer chair seeing how the hand rest was broken to the metal part. so i bought one from wal mart.....i couldnt make the choice between the leather one or the microfiber( think thats how you spell it) but thank god jonny (aka jack bauer) was there with the answer...rock paper scissor...the look on jens face want the best one but none the lese thats what we did....i was the leather and john was the other....i won...

well in the long run i ended up loosing...i made a big mistake...i put my cat skylar on the chair...she loves it...she went to sleep on it right away...today i went up stairs into my room after work and she followed me into the room. as i sat down she meowed at me...not the usual playfull one an pissed off one... go i got off the chair and she jumped on the chair and she is still sleeping there as im typing this on my laptop sitting on my bed.later on i tried to get get her off the chair and she showed me her teeth or should i say a little of her front fang. so i guess i have to get a new chair one just like it for myself

still have to figure out what im going to do for my dbay on sept 12th for all my fans out there that wish to get me a gift...maybe mini puting or something